Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Autumn poems
The sugar maple in Pastor Karl and Tina's yard
blazes in its brightest yellow jacket
these eighteen years on West L Street,
the dwarf burning bush I planted two years ago
on the northeast corner of the house is a
hot red, like living flames of love,
warming my soul in this damp,
misty air.
The tea kettle whistles,
the steam rises to wet my nose,
Earl Gray steeps
in its tea-pot shaped infuser,
the warm cup
in my hands,
a fleece blanket around
my shoulders; I sit in my
wicker chair and
open a book.
Garden Plot
Clods and chunks of Earth
upturned,
bits of withered tomato vines,
cold and fruitless,
stick out of this ground,
too cold to produce,
ready for winter sleep;
marigolds, once smiling yellow
and happy orange,
fade into brown,
brown,
brown.
Walk--5:00 a.m.
Like clock work, I awake before the alarm,
the weight of my body, heavy,
I stumble to the bathroom to pee.
In the dark,
I grapple with my jeans and sweater,
make the bed, and head downstairs
to don my running shoes and sweatshirt.
I open the door
to a sky filled with stars,
cool air that's easy to breathe,
walk the neighborhood three times,
step up onto the curb when two oncoming cars
don't see me.
My joints feel better.
My muscles have moved.
My mind has walked miles.
It's quiet.
I'm awake.
Writing Marathon Odes
O Northwest wind,
sweeping away
the last remnants of autumn,
preparing us for
the coming season
with your chilling fingers
creeping into crannies
of this thick black coat,
reminding us that Old Man Winter
welcomes us with Blindingly
Cold blasts of Arctic air.
Ode to Autumn
Autumn Sun is a blessing,
staving off the turn
in the temperature,
its last desperate days
to warm the Earth before Arctic
air descends upon us as
the Earth orbits around it,
always,
this cycle of rotation,
a circle, unending,
unbroken, a pattern,
a habit, a permanence,
that sustains us.
Ode to the Law Library
Volumes of brown and red
law books envelop me
with a sense of security,
knowing that generations of citizens
invested their wisdom and insight
into creating laws for the
benefit of me--
the benefit of you--
the benefit of ordinary
citizens who go about their
day,
unaware that book after book,
volume after volume has
been written for them.
Popcorn and Pistachios: A Poem
A greasy bag of popcorn
scutters in the brisk breeze,
spewing its two-day old
contents across the bleachers.
Kernels popped,
coated in bright yellow seasoning salt,
mingling with the dirt left behind
by boots, sneakers,
and shoes,
I look down at my feet,
pale pistachio shells,
scattered here and there,
emptied by a nervous parent
watching eleven players
on a field of intensity.
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
Deep Maps
Brad's Deep Map
Caitlin's Deep Map
If I had to give my map a title, it would be called "flair". Not too terribly creative of a title, but I thought the idea itself was creative. The fact that no one else did a flair page for their map is what I like the most about mine; it makes it unique. I dislike the fact that I mainly focused on two questions, and neglected the third.
On some the verymost edges of the map we find some of the less serious buttons, such as the "Office" button, "I used to be cool. Now I drive a Minivan." button, and one of my personal favorites, the "Rawr. I'm a sparkly vampire. Fear my glitter." button. While these are definetly a part of my now, they may change in the future. That's part of the beauty of humanity though; our ability to change. So while my deep map consists of button that reflect the three questions now, I'm curious about what it would look like if I made another one in fifty years . . .
Matt's Deep Map and Essay
Kathryn's Deep Map and Esssay
Where I Am
We all live in an environment that influences what we experience and who we become. However, very few of us take the time to analyze and reflect upon where we are. Being conscious of where we are, is as important as being conscious of who we are, and what we intend to become. In order for you-and other people-to truly understand how you came to be, you must take the time to dig deep and uncover your roots.
In my environment, everything revolves around my faith. For me, my faith in Christ is what’s most important to me. This faith can be found in several places in my environment. The most obvious one is church. Within the church, I have a sort of extended family. They aren’t related in the strict sense, but because of our common beliefs and our willingness to be there for each other, we have formed what you call a church family. Through this family, I have met some of the most extraordinary people I have ever known.
Another place that holds a dear place in my heart is Aurora, Nebraska; my hometown. Originally I was born in Worcester, Massachusetts. But for most of my life, I have lived in that quiet, small, and unique town of Aurora. My family and I came here because my Dad got a job here as a pastor for our church. And I couldn’t have asked to be sent to any place better. In this small town I have met people who I know will have an impact on me for the rest of my life. I have also seen the kind of character and spirit that this place has that I haven’t seen anywhere else. The people who live here have also carried on the tradition of having a tight knit community; a tradition that is often lost in many places nowadays.
The place in Aurora that has impacted me the most is Aurora High School. In this school system, I have been given numerous opportunities. I have been given opportunities in education, music, leadership, involvement in group activities, and in friendships. It was here that I learned many of life’s lasting lessons. And even though I will move on from there to do new and greater things, I will always look back on my experience in high school as being one that has shaped me for the better. If it weren’t for high school, I may have never gotten to know the friends I have now. Some of them became close friends that I love to hang out with. Others are the friends that I have in the classroom. I am certainly not as extraverted as most people, but I feel like I got to know many good kids at school. And many of them will be ones that I’ll never forget. I’ll remember those who were funny, serious, quiet, loud, athletic, artistic, musical, shy, confident, and calm. I’ll remember those who I would invite to movies, simply said “hi” to in the hallway, did projects with in class, and made memories with.
And of course all this wouldn’t be complete without taking a look at my home. For me, home is a very relaxing place (when I don’t have to do homework anyway). I have a Dad, Mom, and two sisters whom I love very much. In my home, the kitchen is the center for great home cooked meals and friendly conversation. My place of security is my room that is found in the basement. It’s painted a calming blue color and displays several of my collected knick knacks. My home has also been the location for many parties. Some of the most memorable were the Christmas parties we would throw each year. I can honestly say for me that “home is where the heart is.”
I have many places that have impacted who I am and who I will become. I have been blessed in that many of them have had a positive influence on me. And now I hope that I can do what I can to spread that positive influence to those whom I come across in the years to come.
My Deep Map
My deep map symbol represents two important things about me: one, I love peace, hence the peace sign, and two, I love the earth, hence the 'green' peace sign. The peace sign also allowed me to represent the multi-faceted aspect of who I am, where I am, and what I am supposed to do. In the upper left corner, I have depicted "where I am" by drawing pictures of my house and its surroundings. Above my house is Aurora High School and the Platte River, two fixtures in my life for the past 18 years. Below my house I drew three things: a highway representing I-80 because I have spent a good portion of my life on the road to Lincoln and and teh University of Nebraska. I also included Andrews Hall on the UNL campus, because I have spent a lot of my time there as a graduate student. I'm sure my ghost will haunt those hallways for a long time. I also have the Hamilton County Courthouse because it is a very noticeable historic landmark in Aurora. I put a yellow sun in the corner of that section of the peace sign because being where I am makes me happy.
In the lower section of my peace sign, I depict 'who I am' by splitting who I am yet acknowledging that it is impossible to really separate who I am from a teacher and scholar from a mother and spouse. On the left side, I have the scholar's flame above the mortar board, and I am surrounded by books, and I wrote the words, "Words, words, words" (to quote Hamlet), and books, books, books. On the right side, I am holding a frying pan with bacon, and I have the quote, "I can bring home the bacon and fry it up in a pan." I am also wearing jeans and a t-shirt with WWHD, which represents, "What Would Hamlet Do?" (This is based off a real t-shirt a friend of mine gave me a couple of years ago). I also have two I (Red Heart) symbols. I love my family (with framed family photo) and I love humor, both of which are true. I also have a movie reel that depicts that I love moveis.
In the upper right hand section I depict what my purpose is by drawing a lake (which looks like a tornado, but it's not). In the tornado-looking lake, I have a big black rock which is supposed to depict me, being dropped into a lake, making ripples. The ripple effect is to remind me that each of us has a purpose and that purpose is quite far-reaching, like ripples in a lake, that expand out into a vast area. That is what teaching is all about. We affect one student at a time, but that affect is far-reaching. It is a ripple. That student (for good or for bad, unfortunately) affects another human being, and that person, another and so on. Above the lake, I have a very large sunrise that is reflected or echoed several times, to depict the same affect of the ripple in the reflection off a lake. In a nutshell, my purpose is extraordinary and far-reaching. I then wrote the words, "Blessed is the influence of one true loving human soul on another" by George Eliot. I think those words sum up what I was trying to depict about my purpose or vocation in this life.